check that shit.

back to my old xanga. this one was fun while it lasted. byeeee.

I miss how I used to write everyday. I think I'm going to try that again.

Yesterday I went to the mall with my mom. We didn't even fight. It was shocking. Chelsea came over, and we went to the mall with Hartford, ChrisJohn, and Donny. Met up with some people there and went to see Harry Potter 4. It was pretty good.

"I DON'T WANT TO BE SEEN CARRYING AROUND THIS POLYESTER PIECE OF CRAP"

Came home. Hung out. Bed.

Went back to Chelsea's today. She had our old "group" over. It was fun. We watched some movie about this pornstar next door..or something. It was really funny. I'm glad I spent this weekend with Chelsea. I've missed her.

It's Snowing Outside. Christmas is getting closer and closer everyday. I am so excited.

I'm also happy that we have a break from school. I need it. I actually have plans for this break too=] Hopefully I'm hanging out with someone sweet tonight, Thanksgiving is tommorw, FCA Sleepover on Friday, hanging out with Britt & Kell on Saturday, and Sephora with my grandmother on Monday.

Exciting.

Have a happy Thanksgiving everyone. Everyone seems to be in not the greatest of moods lately. Just cheer up. Christmas and New Years are just around the corner.

EDIT// I NEED A NEW LIFE. I HATE MINE. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING CAN GO RIGHT..EVER. I'M SO PISSED OFF AND UPSET ABOUT PRACTICALLY NOTHING. I DON'T KNOW. AT LEAST IT SNOWED TONIGHT. THAT WAS COOL.

I really feel like I need to update. I'm not even sure what I want to say yet. I just have a lot on my mind.

Is it weird that I got something that so many people want, and I didn't even want it?

It is. I never wanted it. I would have never even set my standards so high. Now it seems like nothing compares..nothing does. I don't even know what to think anymore. I keep thinking I wish it would have never happened, but I'm not even sure if I feel that way. I don't know how I want to feel. I think that if it would have been something more, I wouldn't be feeling this way. It's not, and it won't ever be, and I know that. Maybe that's what's been making everything so..wrong.

Everything is wrong. It's hard for me to name even one positive thing that has happened to me recently. School sucks, I hate my family, and this weekend I did abssolutely nothing. I'm glad that we have a break this week. Even if it is for Thanksgiving. I hate Thanksgiving.

 Although, it means Christmas is soon. Along with the snow, the presents, the..cheerfulness. I love December. Anddd I believe I am going to NYC with Chelsea over Christmas Break. Something to look foward to.

Things aren't looking too great for me.

I knew better than to get involved with someone like that..especially someone like you. I don't know what to think about myself anymore. It was stupid, but we all make mistakes. I never wanted something out of it. I just don't know why I'm feeling so bad about myself then.

On a lighter note. I've had a pretty good last couple weeks with the girls.

Last Monday, Dessie, Jenn, Lisa, and Jocelyn slept over. We paid $20 to go to DQ. Came back here and had people over. Mom said they had to leave, but of course the came back. It was a good night. Too bad good things can't last forever<3. My parents found out. They weren't even mad. It doesn't make sense. The next day we had to get up and help my dad with his campgaining..or something.

School on Wednesday and Thursday was hell. I hate school.

Fridayyy, Jenn and Dessie came back over. It was fun. Went to Blair's and hung out. It was..something. I don't know.

Here's some cool pictures from the past couple weeks. Me and the girlsss=]

me and extreme at jocelyn's.

BRB.

they don't look alike or anything.

crazayyy game of twister at blurrs house.

the serious "before" picture.

the "after" picture. jocie's still pretty serious.

yeah. i love those girls.